Thursday, December 22, 2011
The Kissing Photo Collection...
I have a huge collection of pictures of me kissing people,
but these people are all people I love,
and consider to be my closest friends.
Nobody gave me herpies while taking these pictures.
(Licking is close to kissing!)
(Horrible lighting in this one)
I'll add more to this collection soon.
A Picture of a picture...
A recently rediscovered picture from 2006 that was supposed to be for my Real Estate business card.
I took a picture of this picture since I don't have a scanner...Notice my foot at the bottom...Classy!
I love the blank stare on my face in this picture...That was basically my mood from 2006-2009 (The Hell years!)
Thought on "Giving even when it hurts"...
If I give something,... anything, it's because I wanted too, and not because I want anything in return.
I know the world is full of trickery and deception, but I have no motives when it comes to sharing, and giving. I come from a place that may be very different then where most people came from, so, maybe it doesn't make sense to most people that I don't want anything in return.
I would like for people to think kindly of me, but not indebted to me, or feel obligated to return the gesture. I truly want nothing in return.
When I was 6 years old I lived in a car with my Mother, and her boyfriend...This lasted a year, but I remember one morning a kind lady knocked on the car window, and invited us into her house. She cooked us breakfast, let us shower, and gave my mother money for food and gas for the car. She brought us into her home, and gave us her compassion, and her time, and she didn't ask, nor expect anything in return.
I'll never know who that woman was...I wish I did because I would love to tell her how grateful I am to her, and how she made a huge impact on my life forever after.
In order to be a certain way in life you have to have those characteristics in you...a part of your DNA, a part of your soul...I've always been this way, and I always will. The woman that fed us only proved that kindness does exist, I have seen it!, and I know it's the right thing to do.
People will abuse kindness. People will think you're a push over, or "soft". People will say you're too "sensitive" or they will just take, and take everything they can get because you're giving it. People will pretend they care about you, and lie to you, and hurt your feelings, and take small pieces of your heart every time they do these things....People will think you aren't aware these things are happening, or act like you deserve it because you didn't have the back bone to stand up to them and say NO.
But, that's not the point...
What other people do as a result of kindness, or compassion, or caring, or any loving gesture you give is not important. It's very unimportant. It's irrelevant. and here is why...
I still did the right thing even if the person, or people don't treat me as such.
It's their soul/karma that will be their judge, and not me. I will always be true to myself regardless of how it's received because DOING THE RIGHT THING DOESN'T ALWAYS SEEM LIKE THE RIGHT THING, but it is.
People will disappoint you, they disappoint me, but I still follow my heart.
Also, some people don't know how to react to kindness, or consideration. Sometimes they act the only way they know how, and it may seem horrible, but it's what they have. It may plant the seed for change in their life, and it may take a long time, but it all matters.
Ultimately I am saying that I give because I want to give...It's from my heart, and I want nothing in return. People will use and abuse this giving, but no matter, I won't ever allow it to harden me, or change what I do. I know I am doing the right thing...
Knowing that I am doing the right thing is the only reward I'll ever need.
I know the world is full of trickery and deception, but I have no motives when it comes to sharing, and giving. I come from a place that may be very different then where most people came from, so, maybe it doesn't make sense to most people that I don't want anything in return.
I would like for people to think kindly of me, but not indebted to me, or feel obligated to return the gesture. I truly want nothing in return.
When I was 6 years old I lived in a car with my Mother, and her boyfriend...This lasted a year, but I remember one morning a kind lady knocked on the car window, and invited us into her house. She cooked us breakfast, let us shower, and gave my mother money for food and gas for the car. She brought us into her home, and gave us her compassion, and her time, and she didn't ask, nor expect anything in return.
I'll never know who that woman was...I wish I did because I would love to tell her how grateful I am to her, and how she made a huge impact on my life forever after.
In order to be a certain way in life you have to have those characteristics in you...a part of your DNA, a part of your soul...I've always been this way, and I always will. The woman that fed us only proved that kindness does exist, I have seen it!, and I know it's the right thing to do.
People will abuse kindness. People will think you're a push over, or "soft". People will say you're too "sensitive" or they will just take, and take everything they can get because you're giving it. People will pretend they care about you, and lie to you, and hurt your feelings, and take small pieces of your heart every time they do these things....People will think you aren't aware these things are happening, or act like you deserve it because you didn't have the back bone to stand up to them and say NO.
But, that's not the point...
What other people do as a result of kindness, or compassion, or caring, or any loving gesture you give is not important. It's very unimportant. It's irrelevant. and here is why...
I still did the right thing even if the person, or people don't treat me as such.
It's their soul/karma that will be their judge, and not me. I will always be true to myself regardless of how it's received because DOING THE RIGHT THING DOESN'T ALWAYS SEEM LIKE THE RIGHT THING, but it is.
People will disappoint you, they disappoint me, but I still follow my heart.
Also, some people don't know how to react to kindness, or consideration. Sometimes they act the only way they know how, and it may seem horrible, but it's what they have. It may plant the seed for change in their life, and it may take a long time, but it all matters.
Ultimately I am saying that I give because I want to give...It's from my heart, and I want nothing in return. People will use and abuse this giving, but no matter, I won't ever allow it to harden me, or change what I do. I know I am doing the right thing...
Knowing that I am doing the right thing is the only reward I'll ever need.
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